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Zoned In

there were many ways to do the deed

drips and drops or creative speed

constraints of time meant do or die
zoned out deep but eager to fly

‘ twas jots and notes in hundred seconds
rushed and hurried, reality beckoned
patched out lightening thriller stories
prided myself for the disciplined glories
but no joy came, just the painful kind
restlessness fogged up the mind
So I deeply reflected and analysed
slowly then I began to realise
there’s a higher realm, the rocky way
the inner focus not outer fray
life’s wisdom twists a new DNA
To accept the route and so I say
I journey with the love of word
I rise and fall just like a bird
but the meaning of life is simply this
flow and feel, but keep the bliss

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Bite the seed

Bite the seed of bitterness

Don’t let it perch in your throat

Nor swallow a piece of your anger

It will only rock your boat


Swim the sea of life’s journey

And face the waves of destiny

Live it like it’s meant to be

But don’t cry and accept disharmony


Your heart is not a ready dart-board

Protect it from needle cactus quotes

You know you bloom to a different chord

Why bother to slam this fussy world


Fill up instead with a pitcher of courage

Fire it with vibes of generous love

There’s no need to burn and boil

Nor fault the daily toil


Know this truth of memories ingrained

They’ll fade or lurk, it’s in our brain

Why dwell in a sensory sewage drain

When we can create a patch of our own heaven


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Mathematics and the God Concept

Math cannot take the mystery out of life without doing away with life itself, for it is life’s mystery, its unpredictability — the fact that it is dynamic, not static — that makes it alive and worth living. – Vedicsciences.net

In ancient India, mathematics served as a bridge between understanding material reality and the spiritual conception. The mathematics of the Vedas lacks the cold, clear, geometric precision of the West; rather, it is cloaked in the poetic language which so distinguishes the East. Vedic mathematicians strongly felt that every discipline must have a purpose, and believed that the ultimate goal of life was to achieve self-realization and love of God and thereby be released from the cycle of birth and death.

Michio Kaku, a theoretical physicist and futurist, says that God could be a mathematician: “The mind of God we believe is cosmic music, the music of strings resonating through 11 dimensional hyperspace. That is the mind of God.”


I was therefore fascinated by the concept for a book entitled Brahmaganita which is explained in detail by Abhishek Leela Pandey, a Knowledge Expert, Senior Faculty Member of the T.I.M.E Institute in Delhi, specializing in Mathematics.  According to Abhishek, Mathematics is Empirical Philosophy. In its most general form, Brahmaganita is the study of the behavior of mathematical expressions and equations. It can be commonly perceived as a connecting link between all the branches of mathematical studies.

It derives its name from Brahma, one of the Gods in Hindu trinity who is unanimously considered as the creator of the universe; and Ganita, the Sanskrit term for Mathematics. Brahmaganita is a tool for more general operations like addition and multiplication, and also to record and analyse the complex patterns pertaining to higher order functions and dimensions.


Interview session with Abhishek Leela Pandey

SN: According to the conclusions of a scientific study, it would appear that learning mathematics truly changes the human brain, in a way that is clearly visible when using medical brain-imaging techniques. What is your perspective on this?

ALP: Mathematics is wired inside a human brain from the time when Lucy (the first human female, our common ancestor) was born. The latency of this mechanism was so much prominent that few minds which were naturally favoured to decode it, grew up to become mathematicians.

Well, the evolutionary pressure on fellow humans paved a way towards development of logic, reason and language. The way mathematics has transformed itself to an abstract yet absolute art, develops, or, rather creates new nodes which were always trying to grow, inside the brain. I do not want to stereotype just humans to be well efficient with Problem Solving capability on a complex level. It is evident in many other highly developed organisms; no rhetoric intended. Yes, the brain changes, expands, convolutes and affects the persona and the super ego of Human Animals.

SN: Mathematics has a link to Brahma?

ALP: Brahma is a collective aspect of the creativity embarked in all the nooks of the Universe. Creativity without Mathematics does not exist.

SN: Mathematics and spirituality are linked. Please elaborate.

ALP: They surely are!! The ultimate aim of any mathematician was to find or at least explain the concept of God. Pythagorus claimed that the entire Universe is a combination of rightly fit Triangles. Tirathji explained how Mathematics has a relation to the commentaries by God. Ramanujan felt the presence of a divine deity which would make Theorems “obvious” to him. Trachtenberg found solace and redemption through mathematics in a prison, under Nazi Supremacy.

 SN: Can everyone, including those who are not good with numbers, understand Brahmaganita?

ALP: Everyone is good with numbers. They do not know it. Brahmaganita works on the principle of self esteem on a mathematical level and that is what it aims to achieve!!

SN: Why are you so passionate about this particular explanation of Brahmaganita? How did you come up with this thought process?

ALP: Passion develops in a bilateral way. It is induced when it is rewarded. I am thankful to my students who have crafted my insanity to passion, if that’s a possibility. This thought process just came to me. I do not know the reason yet.

 SN: Brahmaganita is the study of the behavior of mathematical expressions and equations. To what purpose?

ALP: To demonstrate the occurrences inside a human brain, the epicenter of the universal conscience, mathematical expressions are needed, as they are empirical and devoid of subjectivity and obscurantism.

SN: What is your ultimate aim?

ALP: My ultimate aim is in development, the way everything else is, but yes, I want to prove the existence of God, in an expression so that no one questions its authenticity. Moreover, I would tend to develop amathematical expression for Satan, so that it can be eliminated permanently.


Contact: abhishekleelapandey@gmail.com


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Post-It Notes

From random streaming of notes, I have gathered over the year…

Personal truth: Human beings lie to themselves and other on a daily basis,  we select facts to govern our personal lives and decisions that work to our benefit and convenience and occasionally even our sanity.

In an age of reality, fiction that masquerades as memoir and an internet culture that allows anyone to say anything and declare it gospel truth, mere belief is not good enough.

History: a thread of emotion links the past to the present

Random: Cracks on the window, tricks of light, fragmented…i listen with my eyes, my ears taste the music, no words escape the heart, silent musings erupt in painful shards of broken glass…the cracks on the window are streaks of rain. What wondrous webs we weave through circles of time, thoughts loop through illusory slippery images, until it wings on an idea…crystallizes…maps

Slave or master, tell them yes to fool your brain, there is no truth only perception, play it wise, and follow the path of the smart, stay cool stay sharp, for the world will tread on the weak…no matter what.

Stuck in my head: Ready to Go

Be ready to Go…happy 2016

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Deep dark disturbing quotes

‘Unresolved’ is a dark suspenseful story with disturbing events, cunning characters, and a trap set in a web of deceit….

Ten quotes to fit the psycho theme:

  1. “Weak people always attack strong people – it’s safer. It’s weak people who are dangerous, who lash out uncontrollably and hurt you back. Strong people can walk away – no repercussions, you see, if you attack a strong person.” Sophie Hannah
  2. “I suppose sooner or later in the life of everyone comes a moment of trial. We all of us have our particular devil who rides us and torments us, and we must give battle in the end.” Daphne du Maurier
  3. “I’m not sure you get wiser as you get older, Starling, but you do learn to dodge a certain amount of hell.” Thomas Harris
  4. “I often don’t say things out loud, even when I should. I contain and compartmentalize to a disturbing degree: In my belly-basement are hundreds of bottles of rage, despair, fear, but you’d never guess from looking at me.” Gillian Flynn
  5. “If people stop looking at you, do you cease to exist? Does it mean you’re not a person any more? Does it mean you’re already dead?” Elizabeth Haynes
  6. “As I turned toward it, a premonitory wave of heat flashed across my neck and shoulders, and I felt the dry itch of the past rubbing against the present.” Greg Iles
  7. “The normality of the house terrified her: the gleaming surfaces, the tidiness, the homey touches, the sense that a person lived here who might walk in daylight on any street and pass for human in spite of the atrocities that he had committed.” Dean Koontz
  8. “Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.” Stephen King
  9. “In asserting that people don’t change, what she means is that they don’t change for the better. Whereas changing for the worse, that goes without saying.” A.S.A. Harrison
  10. “I have a feeling that inside you somewhere,there’s somebody nobody knows about.” Alfred Hitchcock

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It is a messy, untidy process this writing. It spills out over the edges, irritating and disorganized. It is meant to be a planned endeavour, fitting into neat spaces created for specific purposes. But the words and phrases emerge as jigsaw pieces unfitting, unbecoming in its purpose, without restraint, of no particular logic. Everyone writes differently. And for me I sometimes feel disconnected when I’ve written something, and I don’t know what to do with these random ideas.

I then realized that jigsaw puzzles are broken down images. The satisfaction comes from putting them together, from making something neat and tidy. The same feel comes when tightening hinges, wiping smoky mirrors, mopping up spilled tea, and colouring. (I bought one of those colouring books for grown-ups, keeps me from reaching out for my smartphone every two minutes).

This stretching of the imagination and writing stuff down at random intervals is necessary, I think. It’s these misplaced words, the clunky rawness of emotion, the edginess of that disturbed state of mind that elicits a tug, a gut pull that something is happening that can be structured. Rage, pity, frustrations spill in all its uncensored state. These can be neatly packaged.

It makes sense eventually when all the pieces fit, when all the emotions tie in together to create interlinked loops of a story. Apophenia is the term used for the way our brains seek pattern where none exists. That’s how we can make sure all our little snippets of thoughts interconnect and form a story.

Here are some tried-and-tested techniques for those who wish to write:

  1. Generally, it is advised to write what you know. I suggest you write what you don’t know, but what you are interested in. For example, I like to know more about the paranormal, conspiracy theories, mental illnesses, the mysteries of the mind and ghosts…so I read, research and write about that stuff.
  2. Common concern is time. Strangely, with the smartphones in our lives, we have even less time. If you have time to brush your teeth, you can spare five minutes to write down some thoughts. No, don’t say I will note these on my smartphone. You won’t, you will get distracted by the pings. Don’t interrupt your flow, write on a notepad, using a pen. You will find these discarded notepads, lying forlornly around the office or home, no one uses them these days. Take five minutes a day. You will be surprised how much you will have written by the end of the week.
  3. What to write. Yes, a dilemma we’ve all suffered. Write about that person you see everyday on your commute to work. Or any character that makes you curious. Write what that person is wearing, the facial expressions, describe the face, the colour of the hair. This helps to develop characterization, then later, delve deeper and come up with ideas on why this person is glum, or why he/she is talking out loud….there’s so much material out there to write about. If nothing else, write about the weather.
  4. And by all means, don’t take it too seriously. Writing is a journey, inner and outer. You are going to suffer because of it, and feel tremendous joy too. So, don’t do it because everyone is, do it because you really, really want to.
  5. Can anyone write? Yes. We do it all the time, the emails, the text messages, these are all skills in writing and communicating. And essentially it helps formulate thoughts in an orderly fashion. Having a formal education is good, as well as an MFA is absolutely wonderful. But, write first and see if you really want to do this long-term and then take up a writing course.

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