It has been a journey of seeking…seeking the known in the unknown, the authentic from the superficial. I search for that, that which makes me wonder about many possibilities in the universe. I know, instinctively, there is a Higher power out there…or maybe it is within me.
There comes a point in life when you ask why and what’s the purpose of it all. It’s a moment of truth, of a search of something just beyond. It is the mind and heart exhausted from all the life experiences. Living in that pool of preconceived notions and habitual behaviour, it is like you’re on auto-pilot, going through the motions of existing, wired to be, to think, to behave in a way that is expected. Then comes the parts of your self that begins to question and rebel, the heart and mind fragment. There are moments of doubt and disappointment
The subconscious needs to repair the fragments of yourself.
Those little bits and pieces of your self came apart because of what life offered you in lessons and experiences.
An inner restlessness is a sign that you want to transform, to change, to become different from what you were cast out to be, but you’re not sure how. There’s a part of yourself that needs fulfilling, it is a sensation of discomfort in a disturbed state of mind. In that maze of confusion, your inner compass goes haywire.
This goes on for weeks, months, maybe even years. You think and wonder and ask a lot of whys…and you seek answers in all kinds of places. Those places offer nothing more than temporary gratification. You are still not discovering the balance within.
And the wondering and wandering continues…more life lessons and experiences tests your limits. Stretches your mind. More questions crop up. The restlessness doesn’t cease but expands to a feverish pitch. It is demanding and fierce.
This is when the epiphany hits…that crucial moment – the moment after you’ve had your fill of wandering and temporary fulfillment. You realise that there’s that place just beyond your reach…but within your grasp. And you know you have to take that leap of faith…either that or once again succumb into the web of wandering and disillusionment.
When you let go and accept…you break through your ego, your fears, your veils of attachments…And you know you have to do this:
Because it is the only way to discover your deeper core
Because facing yourself means being courageous
It means dealing with the pain which will cut through the dark veils of your past self
You will be able to sense with clarity
Instinctively you will know you have discovered an inner guide
This difference in your self is disturbing and new… sometimes it challenges your every thought and emotion…yet you face those negative moments with a warrior spirit…with a sense of awareness and detachment
Because it is true, life is not all that you expected it to be
Because there is a part of you that knows…that very deep instinctive part of you, it knows this is the only way to shape your reality.
It will build you whole from your fragments, it will enable you to be complete within your self.
When that happens, you flow, you grow, you connect with others, you express what they cannot, understand what they feel, and speak a truth that gives them a key to their own heart.
It will happen. All you need to do is go deeper within yourself and you will find your truth…your power.
Life is a never ending lesson……we grow as we learn.